This sem damn sucks. Sucks until i feel myself gone drowning inside the deep blue sea. Why? Why is it like that? People around me start to disbelieve in me. It hurts... because i did tried as hard as possible, but some other person just too scared of people around treating her like everyone treating me. She tend to do all the works by herself until people thought i didn't do work at all. I did find her everyday, every now and then, then asked her which part should i do, but she never tell me but ignored me and continue doing her works. Misunderstanding of what kind of person i am really hurts.

Still got 2 more years to go, and how am i gonna survive with it? with everyone? i know people talk bad behind my back. I think after this sem, my road will be a lot tougher than ever, and i still have to walk on it. I'm really struggling hard, really hard, damn hard, fucking hard. Fighting over my emotions, fighting over my feelings, fighting over my mind, fighting over my own self. Hurts and injuries everywhere. I'm always disguished myself, until i'm going to breakdown soon. I really meant it and seriously meant it, I'm going to be mentally breakdown.

I'm seriously begging for a break....