This sem really is a hard sem for me. Subjects getting harder, lots of things happened, and i seems to lost myself into it.
Embedded Microcontroller, Circuits and Electronics 2, Engineering maths 3B and IC Design, sometimes sounds hard, sometimes not, but still, it's hard. -.- Wanted to gain back my cgpa points aren't easy job. Some more, with the enemy that i really extremely hated so much, who had terribly spoiled my image in uni, who were hated by girls so much too, i don't know how to face it. Every moment my super enemy appeared, my mood, my life got screwed up. That enemy really doesn't know how to give respect to girls. My friend were right, he is a CHAUVINIST!!! He talked about girls like materials, look at girls like materials, treat girls like materials. And that's the fact that he has no gf until now. Which girls wanted to be with a bf like him? There's so much about him but i can't tell much here 'cause he's inside my friend's lists and he has my link too. So, imagine every single day i have to face a person like him. Do you think my life can get any better?
There's a guy, who really messed up my life too. (I think lots of guys always mess up my life, just don't know why -.-) Although i told him for thousand times that i'm not going to have any relationship with any guys anymore, not even in my future. He still always asked me out, be around me, chat with me if got chances, and even tell his friends that both of us has been out together many times. -.- So meaning??? I'm his gf?? Hell No Way!! I really enjoyed my single life very much, spend times with friends, hang around with friends, then after that with my family...but i just don't want to have bf. Because having a bf really bothersome, and also i don't want to be hurted anymore. Someone had broken my heart into pieces, very tiny pieces until i cannot find back each of the tiny broken pieces. I have been hurted from my 1st relationship, until the 2nd relationship which is the worst, and so, i don't want to be hurt for the 3rd time anymore. Although i look tough and strong, but inside i'm too weak to take it. So guys out there, i can be your very good friend, but nothing more than friends ok? Please....=.= and i hope this guy, don't push me too hard. I can hardly breathe already. I can break down anytime. Hope you'll understand. =.=
I missed my Dance Club, my dance friends, my dance crew. It seems like they started to abandon me, as i no longer go for the weekly dance practice. The present President seems unhappy with me for not attending the weekly practice. She did not peduli saya today when i met her, daniel and keong at cafeteria. It really upset me, but i have to accept the fact. Most of the time, i was thinking about the reasons why i did not go for the practice, and i think maybe because of i don't like to mixed around with the juniors. I'm the quiet type of person during the dance practice, and i just wanted to learn and practice seriously, but you know, usually people will just wanted to have some fun during the practices so that it won't be boring. They joke and laughed and would not be serious in practice, that's why i don't like. And some more, i don't like to be focus on too. Well, they had a performance during last saturday(2 days ago), and they said it's good, and i felt so sad. I'm not inside one of them performing. I really got upset. I love dancing. haiz...
Well, day after day, my days getting worse and worse, and i don't know how worse will it continue going, and i really scared i'll break down any moment. I am so over stressed.
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One of my friend had just broke up with her bf. (Who dumped who?) Of course is the girl dumped the guy, because that guy betrayed her and having another girl at other uni, but yet, that guy don't want to let go of her. So meaning, he want to 1 leg on 2 boats. Things happened quite fast. 4 years of relationship vanished just like that. And that guy don't even bothered some more. Currently, although both of them were in broke up mode, but the guy still bugged her everyday, begging her to go back to him. However, it's really impossible to do that. The girl so loyal to him, but he hurts her heart and betrayed her, how could possibly be back together again? Even we all as her friends, also does not support her going back to him. He is just a useless guy already (like someone else...). He just a guy who like to sweet talk to cheat girl's feelings and heart. Well, right now, we all just hoped that she can get over with it, though 4 years of relationship but got vanished just like that is really hard to get through with. Jia You bah our friend, you still have your bright future! ^^*****
Embedded Microcontroller, Circuits and Electronics 2, Engineering maths 3B and IC Design, sometimes sounds hard, sometimes not, but still, it's hard. -.- Wanted to gain back my cgpa points aren't easy job. Some more, with the enemy that i really extremely hated so much, who had terribly spoiled my image in uni, who were hated by girls so much too, i don't know how to face it. Every moment my super enemy appeared, my mood, my life got screwed up. That enemy really doesn't know how to give respect to girls. My friend were right, he is a CHAUVINIST!!! He talked about girls like materials, look at girls like materials, treat girls like materials. And that's the fact that he has no gf until now. Which girls wanted to be with a bf like him? There's so much about him but i can't tell much here 'cause he's inside my friend's lists and he has my link too. So, imagine every single day i have to face a person like him. Do you think my life can get any better?
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There's a guy, who really messed up my life too. (I think lots of guys always mess up my life, just don't know why -.-) Although i told him for thousand times that i'm not going to have any relationship with any guys anymore, not even in my future. He still always asked me out, be around me, chat with me if got chances, and even tell his friends that both of us has been out together many times. -.- So meaning??? I'm his gf?? Hell No Way!! I really enjoyed my single life very much, spend times with friends, hang around with friends, then after that with my family...but i just don't want to have bf. Because having a bf really bothersome, and also i don't want to be hurted anymore. Someone had broken my heart into pieces, very tiny pieces until i cannot find back each of the tiny broken pieces. I have been hurted from my 1st relationship, until the 2nd relationship which is the worst, and so, i don't want to be hurt for the 3rd time anymore. Although i look tough and strong, but inside i'm too weak to take it. So guys out there, i can be your very good friend, but nothing more than friends ok? Please....=.= and i hope this guy, don't push me too hard. I can hardly breathe already. I can break down anytime. Hope you'll understand. =.=
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I missed my Dance Club, my dance friends, my dance crew. It seems like they started to abandon me, as i no longer go for the weekly dance practice. The present President seems unhappy with me for not attending the weekly practice. She did not peduli saya today when i met her, daniel and keong at cafeteria. It really upset me, but i have to accept the fact. Most of the time, i was thinking about the reasons why i did not go for the practice, and i think maybe because of i don't like to mixed around with the juniors. I'm the quiet type of person during the dance practice, and i just wanted to learn and practice seriously, but you know, usually people will just wanted to have some fun during the practices so that it won't be boring. They joke and laughed and would not be serious in practice, that's why i don't like. And some more, i don't like to be focus on too. Well, they had a performance during last saturday(2 days ago), and they said it's good, and i felt so sad. I'm not inside one of them performing. I really got upset. I love dancing. haiz...
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Well, day after day, my days getting worse and worse, and i don't know how worse will it continue going, and i really scared i'll break down any moment. I am so over stressed.
